[Tuesday, February 16, 2010]
8:47 AM
Ok peeps, long tyme siol tk update ni ass.
Ok lah first of all, band story. Ok u might think that its not nice and all but for me, as a band leader, i put my priorities right. My family and brothers always comes first. Gfs, scandals and other stuffs is second. Sounds bastard but if its my wife, i'll put her as first in line to my attention.
Ok, so for my band news, finally produced our official blog. Our original song has a punk rock version. A major leap from being a simple acoustic love song to a punk rockers beat. Zack Misfits had a new guitar and dammit sial!! Mampat siol dier nyer bunyi. Mcm pantat nonok kene maen siak!!!!!!!!!!! Abeh gy rumah zack lpas trg last saturday, sial la maen lagu mat rep smuer. Merapek siol!!!! tpi gerek ar.
OK so aper2 klau nk more band updates go to this website:
http://www.misfitsforacause.blogspot.com/Ok now for my life, LIFE"S FUCKING GREAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ok gurl tyme, my gurl's great. A bit weird though, coz she's weird like really really weord kinda weird weird. Get it?? haha. But its kinda cool to have a weird gf.......Bt im wondering if..........naah forget it. Let the doubts be locked away in davy jones locker...
_Bleeding heart sheds no tear' ;
[Thursday, February 4, 2010]
5:29 AM
Everything has a start. Each band has a dawning of time. This is the tyme for us Misfits to rise up. Some of us has been through hell. LEt this band remain. Let this band go far and will never end. Up till the day, we lie in our deathbeds, our hearts still tell ourselves that our band is still there. That is my vow. My wish. My dream.
We went to our first jamming session last sunday and BOY!!! was it a blast. I could see the potential in this band. And damn! We even played our first original song. Written by Joe Misfits and produced by the Misfits For A Cause. This song was never possible if it isn't thanks to that whole bunch of Misfits. Hahaha.
Ok now, other topics turn. Well as you all know, i'm no longer a single fella. I'm a dude who is in love with a gurl. And this gurl is very special to him. And every passing moments takes a part of this dude's soul as he craves her presence.
Commitments commitments. I have no problem with those. My gurl knows of my comitment to her and my band knows of my commitment to them. This makes my life much more interesting as i love both of them very much.
Well. That's it though. Dunno wad to write somemore.
Ciao..... Long Live Misfits For A Cause I love you, dearest........ I love you mama and abah MEOW_Bleeding heart sheds no tear' ;
[Sunday, December 27, 2009]
7:08 AM
Ok.........so its been awhile since ive last seen this blog. Haahaa. Well, a lot have happened in my life of course. Lets start wif the basics............School. Well school sucks. end of story
Next, my friend, close friend, had a fight wif his gurl. And it was lyk fucking bad. Abeyy, dier msg my fren aka kakak, farhana, that dier nk commit suicide. And the worst part is we we're happily playing pool when he msged tat crap. Ahahahaha.......The irony. Abeyy lpas tu kiter gy jumper dier, suroh dier xplain his situation wadeva fuck. fuhh. gua dgr dier nyer citer, gua darah teros up la sial!!!!!!!!!!!! send shivers down my spine everytime i think abt relatonships after that incident.
OK next topic is a major topic.....................I'm sincerely and dearly and deeply in love wif this gurl. Yups, darlz, if ur reading this, its u. Hahaha. Hais funny thing love is. And i had feelings for her for quite a while now. And finally she realized it. But dier ckp she dun think that i really do love her. And i was lyk WHAT?! I mean of course im in love wif megan fox and jennifer love hewitt and of course tabitha nauser but come on.............haha.
ok parting words...............LONG LIVE M.F.A.C.S.
_Bleeding heart sheds no tear' ;
[Sunday, December 6, 2009]
7:47 AM
Ok i got really some really fucked up news. Tmr start examssss... Fucked stress. Sometimes ar. hais.
Went to study todae, then after that lepakzz. But of course during the lepak i study also la. But srsly man. I find this poly times quite difficult to handle. Coz............theres noone. And i mean NO ONE to push you man. Its juz self-study and those shit ass stuffs. Dammit. And im feeling really scared that i may have to retain one year. Hmm.....
Ahahah. Can u believe it, neesa mccullen tk percayer that i can sing. Hahaha. Then for wad i become lead singer. Maybe when is ing to her confirm dier cair. Einks.... chill2. joking only. I can sing. Anyone can sing. But my voice is not that great la. Juz a normal guy trying to make the best of my voice.
Anyways went for an audition for a play that my school is doing. My teacher told me this.....
" Ahmad ar, i like the way you play around with your emotions and the way you carry the, umm, character but there is a big problem with you." This is the part when i go like WHAT THE FUCK??!! " Your accent is very MELAYU la" And i was like laughing my head off man!!!!! AHAHAHAHA........ Aiyoo.... Cannot la cher i very the melayu tau. Maybe ill have to start to talk more like an Englishman.. Muahahaha........Aper ar...Terok seyy!! I mean What is this? This is bad. Like wad me and my friend izzati always say..........Bagaikan belacan nak jadi Cheese.......Ahahahaha. Well i hope i get into this play though. Coz its gonna be a huge production.
Like a really big production and its a semi-professional production. Damn im so excited.
Oh well betta get some rest now for tmr's hell. toodles
_Bleeding heart sheds no tear' ;
[Wednesday, December 2, 2009]
7:40 AM
OK. Its been an effing long time since i last blogged. Been stressed out lately. School, life. Hais....
I haven been to sch for the past two weeks. I bet even the teacher forgets my name. My studies dropping even faster. I'm changing. for the worse that is. I realize this but i haven found myself a really good reason to change. I've always been seen as a loser. Nerdy. Step. Wadever fuck la. I changed cause i wanna stop that. I want people to fear me. But as i think about it....I wonder, whats the point. Hais......I feel sorry for meself.
Ok now for some positive news. I have juz formed a band wif my cuzzies. The name is Misfits For A Cause. But so far, we haven't started anything yet. Still developing. Ahahahaha....I'm the lead singer cum rythm guitar. yeah. Our genre is mainly on acoustics and punk rock. Currently we're still learning songs from No Use For a Name. I'm very excited about this band. Haha. Dunno why.....
Ok now for the whiny session.........................
I like this gurl, but i'm in-confident that she realised that. Which i hope not. She's perfect. Pretty, smart. Kinda cute too.... But after some logical calculations and thinking and reasoning. I realised that im juz not cut out for her. I mean, its like a beggar falling for a princess. Like the mud falling for the stars. Hais....... Well i don't mind. As i long i can talk to her. It would suffice..... Aiyooo.......If only i can eradicate this feeling. When i feel it, i feels good. But when i think about it, its just impossible.... hmmmmmmmmm...........
_Bleeding heart sheds no tear' ;
[Saturday, November 7, 2009]
6:08 AM
Hey hey hey...Big G's in da house.....Ok ppl. Today's topic will start out serious, then, we end on the lighter side.
Went to CRS class on wednesday. The topic, alamak, darah up la siol. Its about a blogger who "complained" about the future of old citizens like him. Well, i agreed with what he wrote as it was all-too-true. However some bloody, elite asshole son-of-a-bitch criticise him badly. Blahblahblah as the story goes and it ends up on the news. * If u read the newspapers, you'd know. So the issue here is....Even though we tried to telll ourselves to be equal, there will always be some assholes out there who would try and stop us. What i love about Singapore is that its a diverse nation. we leave in harmony. But the main question here is, do we live in harmony becoz of the LAW or the GOVERNMENT?? Or is it becoz of what we feel inside about each other.,I'm not racists. I was raised un-racists. But in my poly life, there are some racists bastards that really pushed me to my limits. Whats wrong wif being me?? Hais....One day, and that one day will soon come, i'll confirm whack the bloody shit of that boy.
Hais enuff of politics la...Back to life as we know it. Hmm, tsk, i missed my best friend's birthday.( I'm such a fucking loser!) all because of fucked up control freak parents who needs a bloody good whack from me!!!!!!!!!!!! Alamak, darah up ar talking abt this. Sudah ar .BYE!
_Bleeding heart sheds no tear' ;
[Wednesday, November 4, 2009]
6:09 AM
Hi guys, sorry for the late posting. Been very very bz lately.School was great. Haha. My china friend smuggled in a WHOLE carton of cigarettes without getting caught. COOL. Adn he gave me one pack. On the house. It was great. Marlboro red.After that, this whole chain starts up. Recently i juz bought 'Next chill' which i shared with my friend. Haiyoo. I've dissapoint a lot of people juz by smoking. And i'm slowly finding it hard to contain my need for nicotine. I hope i really don't get that addicted. God help me....Ehem, i juz bought a new pack today also. :(
Ya know its funny how we humans act and really portray purselves when it comes to love. I've been observing, studying and coming up with theories. Love is a delicate feeling. Everyone will experience it. But most of us are shy to say it out. Take me for an example. I am outgoing. Some call me perasan. I don't mind. I like to boast that i am handsome, macho and a great guy. However, when i'm alone and i look at myself in the mirror, i see a loser. Staring at me blankly. Telling me to stop lying about who i am. I have felt love before. But that other person always tells me," That girl is too good for you. And you're not fit for her." That really really pulls me down. Like now. I like this girl in my course. But i always assume that she has a boyfriend ( i really think she do). I feel jealous. I see all my friends having a partner and i'm stuck up as a single. Low self-esteem?? UNLIKELY. Hmmm. Maybe its not my time yet. Or maybe i'm just too naive. Only God knows.........
So as a parting gift here's a poem that i made on the spot, :-) :
Alone
Trapped in a world so cold
Shivering, waiting for my only one
Who would come as a shining light
As a warmth that i have been dreaming of
But alas
It was only a dream
A dream that only lasts
In impossible dreams
P.S I'm sorry if its bad. I'm still new ok.
OK ladies, Big G is going off now. Play THE SIMS 3!!!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!! Bye
_Bleeding heart sheds no tear' ;
