[Saturday, November 7, 2009]
6:08 AM
Hey hey hey...Big G's in da house.....Ok ppl. Today's topic will start out serious, then, we end on the lighter side.
Went to CRS class on wednesday. The topic, alamak, darah up la siol. Its about a blogger who "complained" about the future of old citizens like him. Well, i agreed with what he wrote as it was all-too-true. However some bloody, elite asshole son-of-a-bitch criticise him badly. Blahblahblah as the story goes and it ends up on the news. * If u read the newspapers, you'd know. So the issue here is....Even though we tried to telll ourselves to be equal, there will always be some assholes out there who would try and stop us. What i love about Singapore is that its a diverse nation. we leave in harmony. But the main question here is, do we live in harmony becoz of the LAW or the GOVERNMENT?? Or is it becoz of what we feel inside about each other.,I'm not racists. I was raised un-racists. But in my poly life, there are some racists bastards that really pushed me to my limits. Whats wrong wif being me?? Hais....One day, and that one day will soon come, i'll confirm whack the bloody shit of that boy.
Hais enuff of politics la...Back to life as we know it. Hmm, tsk, i missed my best friend's birthday.( I'm such a fucking loser!) all because of fucked up control freak parents who needs a bloody good whack from me!!!!!!!!!!!! Alamak, darah up ar talking abt this. Sudah ar .BYE!
_Bleeding heart sheds no tear' ;
[Wednesday, November 4, 2009]
6:09 AM
Hi guys, sorry for the late posting. Been very very bz lately.School was great. Haha. My china friend smuggled in a WHOLE carton of cigarettes without getting caught. COOL. Adn he gave me one pack. On the house. It was great. Marlboro red.After that, this whole chain starts up. Recently i juz bought 'Next chill' which i shared with my friend. Haiyoo. I've dissapoint a lot of people juz by smoking. And i'm slowly finding it hard to contain my need for nicotine. I hope i really don't get that addicted. God help me....Ehem, i juz bought a new pack today also. :(
Ya know its funny how we humans act and really portray purselves when it comes to love. I've been observing, studying and coming up with theories. Love is a delicate feeling. Everyone will experience it. But most of us are shy to say it out. Take me for an example. I am outgoing. Some call me perasan. I don't mind. I like to boast that i am handsome, macho and a great guy. However, when i'm alone and i look at myself in the mirror, i see a loser. Staring at me blankly. Telling me to stop lying about who i am. I have felt love before. But that other person always tells me," That girl is too good for you. And you're not fit for her." That really really pulls me down. Like now. I like this girl in my course. But i always assume that she has a boyfriend ( i really think she do). I feel jealous. I see all my friends having a partner and i'm stuck up as a single. Low self-esteem?? UNLIKELY. Hmmm. Maybe its not my time yet. Or maybe i'm just too naive. Only God knows.........
So as a parting gift here's a poem that i made on the spot, :-) :
Alone
Trapped in a world so cold
Shivering, waiting for my only one
Who would come as a shining light
As a warmth that i have been dreaming of
But alas
It was only a dream
A dream that only lasts
In impossible dreams
P.S I'm sorry if its bad. I'm still new ok.
OK ladies, Big G is going off now. Play THE SIMS 3!!!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!! Bye
_Bleeding heart sheds no tear' ;
