[Sunday, December 27, 2009]
7:08 AM
Ok.........so its been awhile since ive last seen this blog. Haahaa. Well, a lot have happened in my life of course. Lets start wif the basics............School. Well school sucks. end of story
Next, my friend, close friend, had a fight wif his gurl. And it was lyk fucking bad. Abeyy, dier msg my fren aka kakak, farhana, that dier nk commit suicide. And the worst part is we we're happily playing pool when he msged tat crap. Ahahahaha.......The irony. Abeyy lpas tu kiter gy jumper dier, suroh dier xplain his situation wadeva fuck. fuhh. gua dgr dier nyer citer, gua darah teros up la sial!!!!!!!!!!!! send shivers down my spine everytime i think abt relatonships after that incident.
OK next topic is a major topic.....................I'm sincerely and dearly and deeply in love wif this gurl. Yups, darlz, if ur reading this, its u. Hahaha. Hais funny thing love is. And i had feelings for her for quite a while now. And finally she realized it. But dier ckp she dun think that i really do love her. And i was lyk WHAT?! I mean of course im in love wif megan fox and jennifer love hewitt and of course tabitha nauser but come on.............haha.
ok parting words...............LONG LIVE M.F.A.C.S.
_Bleeding heart sheds no tear' ;
[Sunday, December 6, 2009]
7:47 AM
Ok i got really some really fucked up news. Tmr start examssss... Fucked stress. Sometimes ar. hais.
Went to study todae, then after that lepakzz. But of course during the lepak i study also la. But srsly man. I find this poly times quite difficult to handle. Coz............theres noone. And i mean NO ONE to push you man. Its juz self-study and those shit ass stuffs. Dammit. And im feeling really scared that i may have to retain one year. Hmm.....
Ahahah. Can u believe it, neesa mccullen tk percayer that i can sing. Hahaha. Then for wad i become lead singer. Maybe when is ing to her confirm dier cair. Einks.... chill2. joking only. I can sing. Anyone can sing. But my voice is not that great la. Juz a normal guy trying to make the best of my voice.
Anyways went for an audition for a play that my school is doing. My teacher told me this.....
" Ahmad ar, i like the way you play around with your emotions and the way you carry the, umm, character but there is a big problem with you." This is the part when i go like WHAT THE FUCK??!! " Your accent is very MELAYU la" And i was like laughing my head off man!!!!! AHAHAHAHA........ Aiyoo.... Cannot la cher i very the melayu tau. Maybe ill have to start to talk more like an Englishman.. Muahahaha........Aper ar...Terok seyy!! I mean What is this? This is bad. Like wad me and my friend izzati always say..........Bagaikan belacan nak jadi Cheese.......Ahahahaha. Well i hope i get into this play though. Coz its gonna be a huge production.
Like a really big production and its a semi-professional production. Damn im so excited.
Oh well betta get some rest now for tmr's hell. toodles
_Bleeding heart sheds no tear' ;
[Wednesday, December 2, 2009]
7:40 AM
OK. Its been an effing long time since i last blogged. Been stressed out lately. School, life. Hais....
I haven been to sch for the past two weeks. I bet even the teacher forgets my name. My studies dropping even faster. I'm changing. for the worse that is. I realize this but i haven found myself a really good reason to change. I've always been seen as a loser. Nerdy. Step. Wadever fuck la. I changed cause i wanna stop that. I want people to fear me. But as i think about it....I wonder, whats the point. Hais......I feel sorry for meself.
Ok now for some positive news. I have juz formed a band wif my cuzzies. The name is Misfits For A Cause. But so far, we haven't started anything yet. Still developing. Ahahahaha....I'm the lead singer cum rythm guitar. yeah. Our genre is mainly on acoustics and punk rock. Currently we're still learning songs from No Use For a Name. I'm very excited about this band. Haha. Dunno why.....
Ok now for the whiny session.........................
I like this gurl, but i'm in-confident that she realised that. Which i hope not. She's perfect. Pretty, smart. Kinda cute too.... But after some logical calculations and thinking and reasoning. I realised that im juz not cut out for her. I mean, its like a beggar falling for a princess. Like the mud falling for the stars. Hais....... Well i don't mind. As i long i can talk to her. It would suffice..... Aiyooo.......If only i can eradicate this feeling. When i feel it, i feels good. But when i think about it, its just impossible.... hmmmmmmmmm...........
_Bleeding heart sheds no tear' ;
